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2009-09-15T15:46:00.000-07:00

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2009-09-09T10:19:00.000-07:00

2009-08-16T18:24:00.000-07:00

Katie said that Les Paul died.

That is really weird if you think about it. How many people who know about Les Pauls do you think actaully know he is(was) a person? And do you think that percentage will decrease now that he is dead?

2009-08-10T14:56:00.000-07:00

Now I live in Lawrence KS.

Need a job.

CHOMP WOMP.

2009-08-07T12:19:00.001-07:00

2009-08-07T10:34:00.000-07:00

Wish I had both of these:

2009-08-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

Text messages I sent to Barrett while BK was on 4 day mini tour with Drew:

Jul30 1:30am
Worlds tallest bear is in Murfreesburo TN

Jul31 12:07am
Like Jimmy Hendrix doing a Eddie Van Halen impression.

Jul31 2:00am
In Tennessee the guys tell their dads about the party, the dads show up, and creep us out.

Jul31 2:04am
This guy just cant stop jumping on this camel!

Jul31 2:49am
The worlds longest Chuck Berry interview tonight at 3, in Nashville.

Jul31 3:16am
When I play guitar I turn the amp into a portal.

Aug1 3:14am
Drew thinks he might not be able to get a boner for Katy Perry

Aug1 3:19am
Drew says "It must suck to be gay youll never know what its like to have a crush on Katy Perry."

Aug2 1:16am
What would neal young do?

Aug2 3:22am
Do you think Harry Potter's dick would fit in your mouth?

Aug2 3:33am
Stephen took (deleted) and cant stop making out with everyone here

Aug2 2:35pm
Our Lady of House Shows

2009-08-01T13:21:00.000-07:00

Here are some photes from the road:

We saw this sweet Alan Jackson tour semi in Nashville.

This guy's band was pretty cool but Im still gonna send a picture of him to lookatthisfuckinghipster (peep that fucking tat!).

We played a reverse BK set. *note: There has been facepaint at everyshow so far.

We made coleslaw to the BBQ, and it was a hit, until some perve put his foot in it.

We threw a Katy Perry dance party, right before we called her and left a voicemail about the 100reasons we love her.

Stephen found a vintage dildo. *ATTN Barrett

2009-07-31T20:48:00.000-07:00

oh my god is Katy Perry not the most wonderful human creature?!?!

2009-07-31T16:21:00.000-07:00

For the grand finale of last nights show I threw my guitar to Stephen who was supposed to strum the last chord of Saint Paul while jumping. Instead he dropped the guitar and broke off one of the tuners. Since we were in Nashville we just went by the Gibson Factory when we woke up and they gave me a new tuner for free.

And we got to play guitars that cost more than cars while we were there too.

Havnt really seen any ugly girls in Tennessee (yet knock on wood!), and we saw the worlds hottest grandma outside a church.

Youre the only ten I see!

2009-07-28T11:19:00.000-07:00

Hand of Gold cassette finally available.
Playing noise guitar in High Diving Ponies.
Throwing my guitar into the drums +10 new dents.
Drinking Prune Juice.
New Jeans.
Chomp Womp Picnic.
PS3 and Hamms to Vegan Jamaican Jerk Patty with DAN.
$1.69 Ganesha beer.
Playing drums on There She Goes.
Another Galaxie 500 cover.
Throwing my guitar into the drums (again) +10 new dents.
4 hour pool party feat. with Neesa and 4 cases of beer, teaching everyone how to shotgun.
Slapping Stephen at a CiCi's Pizza Buffet.
Free Nail Polish.
Stephen playing maracas in Abe Vigoda.
Stephen throwing my amp on the pavement (payback?).
Spinning the bottle with Abe Vigoda.
Meeting Mark's fiancee at a Burger King.
Getting an apartment, and naming it DADPAD.

Tomorrow we leave on DREWUR!
We are taking so much junk, we will try to take lots of pictures.

2009-07-20T08:51:00.001-07:00

Im real proud that two of my best friends popped up on lookatthisfuckinghipster.com!

Spent time today looking at grad schools. I think Im going to have to take some nondegree postgrad courses to boost my GPA, oops! The only South Asian History program Ive found thus far is in UM Twin Cities.

2009-07-17T12:10:00.000-07:00

2009-07-16T14:12:00.000-07:00

I made a flier for our trip with Drew:

The tape is all recorded, and when Jack & Thomas get back from tour we are going to have a dub night. The artwork is almost done (ATTN GABE what number should I put on the jcard???), just need to print the inserts, the labels, and get some cases. Ill put up pictures of the finished product, when it achieves said state.

Got a show in StL this weekend, with Nonreturner, the day after Sonic Youth plays a free show under the Arch. And next weekend High Diving Ponies are coming to visit noise upon Columbia. Working on a flier for that show too.

Stephen and I are working up a surprise for Family Night, Aug3.

In other news I finally put a second song on the BK myspace, it's from the tape, enjoy.

2009-07-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

drunk much? butt munch!

2009-07-02T15:12:00.001-07:00

Chomp Womp Sodafest weekend 'fore last was amazing. So much fun hanging out with everyone, playing in Nonreturner, eating hushpuppies, and stealing shit fomr Alex's house. The day after Stephen and I had a picnic of orange soda and cheetos, found a burger car, and went to Iowa City. The show in Iowa City was so awesome that I think all the bands that played are going to play a three date mini tour between Missouri and Kansas in August. Joe did a pretty good job of talking me into moving to Iowa City.

Last week Stephen and I heard MJ died while in a McDonalds inside a gas station somewhere in Illinois. In Madison I picked up 25 of the Hand of Gold tapes, and I got some of the Shugazi files from Alex, so hopefully Ill get the rest soon and that will be out shortly. The shows in Madison and Chicago were really chill, and the new Sonmi setup is the best so far. We started saying boioioing a lot, and never stopped. In Chicago Gabe suggested the three of us get an apartment, maybe moving to Chicago, Jenna got pissy (go figure), and John melted a penny with a 5foot by 6foot magnifying glass that he bought.

now we are back in Columbia. James is going to the casino tonight in hopes that he can win the $400 he needs to pay he paraphernalia ticket. Im almost done with Arabian Nights, and Ive been doing a lot of mixin', getting ready to release this shit.

where to move Kansas, Iowa City, Chicago?

2009-06-21T17:58:00.000-07:00

NO EX GIRLFRIENDS

2009-06-19T09:36:00.000-07:00

2009-06-03T21:45:00.000-07:00

Greetings from Madison.
Alex Julia and I just shotgunned some beers!

Ive been up here working on Shugazi with Alex. But weve been having lots of fun too. We killed a giant bottle of Even black, and drank Joose. In Madison they sweep the streets, theres lots of hotties on bikes, and best of all they still have alcholic energy drinks. AND all the energy beers are 9+ ABV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also I think Im allergic to rats.

2009-05-24T01:05:00.001-07:00

the little hairs on my arms are starting to turn blonde. summer.

barrett has been blogging up a storm.
reminds me i need to come up with some money to pay for home internet.

2009-05-14T21:37:00.001-07:00

shoot hoops = ejaculate spaghettios

2009-05-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

Just took my last final, now I just need to finish my capstone paper.

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Friday Burger Kingdom show with TOPS (sickband)
Saturday Graduation.

Hopefully sometime this weekend getting messed and listening to the new Sinkane album.
(Can't go wrong with an elephant on your album cover.)

2009-05-09T11:58:00.000-07:00

For Mothers Day, I decided to rework the Jesus and Mary Chain classic Just like Honey, but about moms.
THUS! Burger Kingdom - Just like Mommy.
I meant to do this earlier this week, but finals, research, jobs, and papers are slowing me down. But I took a break from all that last night to record this song. It was all tracked and mixed in 4 hours, whoo.

Download.

Lyrics.

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Im thinking about putting my Sambas in the washing machine, because I spilled ketchup all over them. Is this a bad idea?

2009-05-08T11:11:00.000-07:00

This was the first album I ever bought (it was a cassette) in 5th grade.
I just ripped it from Alex, now Im jamming it while working on my capstone, so I can graduate from college in a week.

2009-05-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

feeling: despondent.

2009-04-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

Alex DeGroot is going to be in town until Sunday, to help us finish the tracking and mixing of Shugazi! Going to put some fuzzwah on there, and get some sweet tambourine sounds.

On Friday there is a potluck at my house (dinner at 7). Anyone who is interested is invited, just contact me for directions. After everyone is full Alex is going to play a set in the kitchen.
Bring some food, and a buck or two for Alex.

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Boo and Boo Too will be here Wed!

2009-04-15T10:33:00.000-07:00

Best Combos

1 Cheddar Cheese & Cracker
2 Pizzeria & Pretzel
3 Zesty Salsa & Tortilla
4 Cheddar Cheese & Pretzel
5 Nacho Cheese & Pretzel
6 Pepperoni Pizza & Cracker

A list composed by Erik Moore, Jimmy McMillen, & Joe Ross

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The show last night was a lot of fun.
During our set I lost my glasses, but it was cool because after the show we found Buddha.

2009-04-12T15:04:00.000-07:00

Q:
Do you think George Harrison was enlightened?

A:
"No. Well uh, I dont think I know enough about George Harrison to say." - Anna Luna

"Um... Yeah. And thats why he died. 'Cause he was enlightened." - Stephen Howard

"I have difficulty understanding enlightenment, but I dont think so, from what I know about his life." - Papa McMillen

"I dont know. I dont have anything to base that on. He had a pretty big beard for a while though." - Calla Martin

What do you think?

2009-04-05T18:45:00.000-07:00

one pair a year, forever.

2009-03-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

I found this video today.
Its an interview with Glenn Branca from when Stephen and I played his 100 Guitar Symphony in St. Louis. If you keep your eyes peeled you can see our mugs.

2009-03-29T19:10:00.000-07:00

For the past week Ive been wearing an old Ramones tshirt, and having a real bad attitude.

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Beer is bad for you. Whiskey is good for you.

2009-03-24T17:21:00.000-07:00

We've been kicked out of Tyler Snell's house twice in the last 24hours.
Burger Kingdom is playing at Jennifer's potluck on Saturday, which means I will be in Lawrence 4 weekends in a row (3 for Stephen).

*edit- Jennifer pussed out, so we didnt go back to Lawrence. I lost my voice after singing in two bands at the show friday anyways.

2009-03-20T14:14:00.000-07:00

I finally put a song on the Burger Kingdom myspace.
Shh dont tell anyone. I did it just for you. linky-link!!

2009-03-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

2009-03-06T11:18:00.000-08:00

The last three days its been spring in Columbia; bright, warm, girls in skirts.
Stephen and I have started working on 5 new Burger Kingdom songs in the last week. Such an unprecedented jump in productivity can only be attributed to the weather. Burger Kingdom is a summer band writing summer songs. This might end up delaying the release of our album since now we will have a few more songs to record.

This past summer was kinda a bummer, but it was also really great at the same time. I rode my bike and went swimming almost everyday. I was thinking about it and the climax of the whole summer was the night Baby Birds came through, and played at Sick Porch. Gabe, Barrett, Annie, Derek, and Hilary all came down to Columbia for the show, and all our awesome Kansas friends hung out with all our awesome Missouri friends and it was great. After Baby Birds' set we all played Red Rover Lawrence vs. Columbia style in the middle of the street. When the Sick Porch people started going to bed, Stephen and I took all the Lawrence kids skinny dipping at the Ranch, then we all passed out at Lisa's after frying a bunch of food. It was a perfect summer night.

2009-02-21T22:21:00.000-08:00

Stephen gave me the first Pale Saints album last night.
This song is real good, you should check it.

2009-02-19T20:43:00.000-08:00

तत्त्वमसि
tat tvam asi

that, you are

2009-02-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

Outgoing text messages from last night:

10:09pm
BARACK OBAMA NEVER SHOT NO BEAR
(4million dollars a year is spent on bear hunts, mostly by guys like Dick Cheney. This is a totally real statistic.)

10:45pm
My sickness medicates itself
(I overheard someone say this at the Battleship before the bands started)

11:31pm
There are burger demons in taco hell
(I was thinking about it and well, duh.)

2009-02-05T11:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we recorded. You could see the Burger King from the studio, and of course we took a whopper break. We tracked all the drums, and got some guitar stuff done too. But there is still a lot more stuff to track, more guitars, vocals, tambourines, feedback, and tape collages. And then we got to mix the thing. It feels like completion is a long way off, but Im really excited about the end result.

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Jeremy came over the other night and gave me a cdr of Jerusalem and the Starbaskets fourtrack recordings going all the way back to 1998, that Im really excited about. And the last time I was in Lawrence Drew gave me some out of print BBDDM recordings, and that was really awesome too.
Ive been jamming these recording lately, with the addition of a Girls of Gravitron cassette Jeremy lent me, and Caste Piss Set.

2009-01-30T13:19:00.000-08:00

right now in this town there is no...
good parties,
recording,
inspiration.

its a period of malaise here in columbia missouri.

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the jesus and mary chain has been blowing my mind everyday for the last month.

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i want weird wounds to come play a show in a basement, and i want to ride in a bus to chicago. and i want to record this fucking album!
it is killing me to have to wait for these things to happen. it will be awesome when they do.

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you get it? im bored.

2009-01-23T13:05:00.000-08:00

"my favorite colour is gold."

2009-01-21T14:24:00.000-08:00

i live across from a church.
when we moved in the sign said:
'dont be so open minded your brain falls out.'

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last night stephen howard ripped a handful of my chest hair out, and then my roommate ate them. im dead serious, this happened. i cant believe it either.

2009-01-17T17:46:00.000-08:00

2008-12-26T20:45:00.001-08:00

2008-12-21T20:22:00.000-08:00

i know its been a while blog/readers, but ive prepared excuses for you. first off ive been too busy worrying about stuff to write here, also ive started writing in a little notebook, which is really nice. there are so many things i want to share, so prepare yourself for a blog of vignettes.

the last three weeks of this past semester were terrible. or maybe not terrible but just stressful, uncomfortable, and hard. i worried so much, and im still worrying a little. i feel like my grades could go either way. i had really high goals for this semester, and though i feel like i accomplished a lot, i think i could have done better.

one night after burger church i went to a school of music recital for a class. stephen and i shared a couple tall boys after practice, and i drove fast all the way to campus. they had video projections to go along with the performance, and the selections were 60s works from Harold Budd and Terry Riley. sometimes a good art music concert can be just as powerful and blissful as a loud sweaty basement show. the last piece that night was In C by Terry Riley, which i mention only in hopes that you will inquire further into this composition, and enjoy it as much as i do.

i was at a party, sitting by myself, feeling unmotivated to talk to anyone at that moment, when generic columbia hipster asked me if i often felt discontented with my life. i informed him that i am, as a matter of fact, extremely content with my life. honestly i feel like content is the perfect word to describe how i feel about my life.

for the next month most of my best friends will be coming through columbia.
sometime around february they will all be gone.

my brain has been in a really weird place recently.
ive been holding myself to extremely high standards, and feeling disappointed in myself a lot. although i feel like a person should always strive for improvement, i think im creating a destructive environment for myself.
i try to remind myself of that zen story: i set the girl down back there on the road, why are you still carrying her?

stephen graduated saturday.
it seems that much of my importance, to some individuals, is as a cipher to stephen howard. therefore in light of this event, i feel some obligation to transmit, my perception, of his feelings on graduating. i ask that you please provide your own grains of salt.
i think it felt a little anti climactic. its like locking yourself out of your house. while you werent looking the door has closed behind you, and before you realize that your key isnt in your pocket, and before you see that the door is shut, you arnt locked out.
ill graduate in may, and im going to wear the same hat and robe that stephen did when i walk.

the plan over the next month is to record shugazi.

2008-12-07T00:56:00.000-08:00

stephen and i played a show tonight. they put us on last, so by the time we played half the people who came to see us had left, and we might have had a little to much.
i broke a string during the first song, and spent most of the set on the ground. at one point i jumped off an amp and fell into a wall, at another point i left my guitar feeding back next to my amp while i walked out into the crowd, to end the set we threw all our gear into a pile and tackled eachother. oh yeah and most importantly we were loud as fuck.
my ears are ringing pretty bad right now.
it was pretty much everything i have ever wanted a burgerkingdom show to be, except you werent there!

i gave myself a haircut today too, it was well overdue.

2008-11-11T00:22:00.000-08:00

tomorrow stephen and i are off to st louis, where we will be crashing with friends until friday.
we are going to take part in the performance of Glenn Branca's Symphony no. 13 (Hallucination City) for 100 guitars. the piece is over an hour long, and split into 4 movements.

we have a twelve hour rehearsal tomorrow, a five hour rehearsal on wed, and a three hour sound check thurs before the performance. which means that even though we will get to see our friends in stl we wont really get a chance to hang out with them.
for the next three days im going to be playing so much guitar.

i havnt had to read music for any purpose other than transcribing ideas, or studying works, since i was in middle school. meaning i havnt performed from sheet music for the last half of this life. and i havnt played in a large orchestrated group of musicians in just as long.
im really nervous that im going to fail horribly, and not be able to do it.

i still need to pack.

in non music news, its been really hard to find the motivation to shower daily, let alone bi daily, recently. and the plant in my bedroom just turned over a new leaf.

2008-11-06T07:12:00.000-08:00

stephen said, umbros is pretty much dead.

2008-11-01T10:01:00.001-07:00

last night i wizard staffed over my head.
my head hurts so bad right now!

2008-10-30T14:18:00.000-07:00

so it turns out that henry has atleast three roommates. i found this out yesterday, when i was trying to make a lettuce and mayonnaise sandwich.
james and i went to walmart to buy mousetraps at 1am. we also went ahead and bought beer, wine, and halloween candy. we set the traps, and i stayed up to drink my giant beer and watch a terrible movie. i heard two traps snap.
one of the mice's head exploded or something, cause there was a giant puddle of blood, and the little guy was kicking around and just freaking out, spraying blood all over the stove.
it was pretty gruesome.
the last thing i wanted to do was clean up mouse blood, so now there is dried blood all over the stove.

i read some tao teh ching before bed. right before i fell asleep i was trying to remember what book contained that zen story where the man spends his whole life in front of a gate but the guard wont let him in.

henry is dead.

2008-10-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

this weekend i opened up a portal to an alternate dimension, maybe because i only ate burgerking that day. i spent the next night trapped in my living room, and ate some day old pizza. when i woke up in the morning i felt like barfing, so i tried to have the most chill day ever, capped off with a peanut butter cup blizzard.
my vocal chords were shredded.

ive felt real weird recently. especially last night.
i spent fifteen minutes trying to rent a movie at the grocery, and that whole time some hottie with patched jeans was self checking. it felt really weird that it was taking her that long. they even had one of those old credit card slider machines, you know what im talking about? well thats what they used to charge $1.08 to my debit card, and that girl still wasnt done checking out. when i went to leave she almost ran straight into me.
at home it was fifty degrees, and i watched this movie, which turned out to be a bummer all the way through. i didnt know what to do, or else i would have done something else.

its getting a little cold for a mustache.

also there is a mouse living in my oven! i think i decided to name him henry.
i went to my parenst house to get my bb gun, so i could go on a mouse hunt, but my little brother had broken it a long time ago.
but i found my shotgun, so yeah stephen & gregg lets go!

2008-09-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

everyone wants my money, but the joke is on you motherfuckers because i dont have any more money. sorry you cant have the money because someone else beat you to it.
i guess people are worried about their money which is motivation for them to squeeze a little extra money for themselves out of others.

gregg gave me a bag of rice, among other food stuffs, for my birthday.
my birthday sucked. surprise!
since i turned 23 ive eaten a lot of rice, for the reason refer above.

bummed out.
i cant even get myself excited about the upcoming shows.

2008-09-16T13:54:00.000-07:00

spent all day in my house doing next to nothing.

went into town and bought a part to fix my broken fuzz pedal. with the aid of my soldering iron and james' hands i fixed my fender blender. well sorta. the tone boost isnt working now.

good enough. burger kingdoms guitar octave fuzz guitar solos.

2008-09-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

i got tired of learning about the legal codes of Athens in the 4th century bc, so i tried to watch the dvd from Low - A Lifetime of Temporary Relief, only to find that my university job issue laptop has video player. however i did discover that i get pretty fast wireless in the living room, courtesy of butterfly girl. its a good thing too because im in that limbo where i want to pass out but have a load of clothes in the dryer.
to kill time i ended up reading blogs, and by some link clicking ended up reading the blogs of people who ive never had a whole conversation with before. i dont think thats weird.
it made me wish i had more bloggin friends. i might just start going out of my way to befriend more people with blogs.

ive been feeling really weird recently. since stephens birthday ive had no desire to go out.
i dont really want to interact with anyone. friends have been disappointing. sorry this paragraph is vague, its not easy to describe feelings you dont fully understand. suffice to say i want to hermit for a while.

this semester i have to learn german, sanskrit, and some greek. it would seem that for the next 3 months i should have a book in hand more often than a beer.

fold the clothes, goto bed.

2008-09-11T09:54:00.000-07:00

i think im going to go buy some chips with my last $2.

2008-09-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

earlier today in physical geography i learned how and why the earth's rotation effects things rotations differently depending on the hemisphere you are in.
later today i realized that i have been twisting the ends of my handlebar mustache the wrong direction. once i made this discovery my handlebar mustache improved greatly. so much so that i was inspired to take a photobooth pic on a computer in the library, for you those bloggians who have not yet seen my handlebars.

in other news i wrote my essay about hanging out with hipsters in berlin.
and stephen is in right lawrence now having a good time.

2008-09-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

i have class here in an hour. im supposed to turn in a 150 word essay on what i would do if i were in berlin. i didnt realize it was supposed to be that long last night when i went to a bar, or when i drank so many beers, or when i hit snooze this mourning. that being said i should have gone to the library instead of the bar lastnight. anyways ive given up. i cant write 150 words in german in an hour.
what would i do if i was in berlin? find german hipsters. duh!

Hallo Hipsteren. Ich heisst Erik, und ich komme aus der mittlerer Westen.
Ich gern das billig Bier. Magst du Hexenmeisterstab mit mich speilen?

today is stephens birthday.

the weather is nice today, but i have a prettybad stomach hangover.

*EDIT* fuck it im not going to class im going to buy some french fries and go shopping for veggies for stephens birthday dinner with danielle instead.

2008-09-02T20:00:00.000-07:00

neesa quote, courtesy of barrett evan emke's myspace, to be used in future burger kingdom song:

"i farted.... my hand is gold."

2008-08-29T08:19:00.001-07:00

i just read gabe's blog (gabe i just noticed yesterday that you restarted you blog, and im very happy you did).
here is my reaction:

we are all alienated, and we did it to ourselves. i keep having the same conversation with all my friends, everyone feels lonely now, everyone is swimming in the barren ocean of the world. and i know why because we didnt stay together. we exploded across the country, or moved into some new endeavor.
instead we should have come together, we should have gathered all of us in one place, a neighborhood maybe, and lived together as an island. an atlantis on the barren ocean.

i guess we wont always be alienated.

finished This Side of Paradise lastnight. it didnt make me feel any more hopeful for the future.
maybe im too connected to the egotist, to yet perceive the growth into the personage.

2008-08-28T11:22:00.000-07:00

to write my undergrad thesis i need to find a professor to advise me, and then find two other faculty members to serve on the panel that i will have to defend my thesis to. originally i was going to write a thesis on the reconstruction of post war germany, however the resident german historian said in so many word that he doesnt know me and therefor has no interest in being my faculty advisor. none of the other professors feel like they have enough background to advise me on a thesis on modern germany, and are recommending that i just take the easy out and take a senior seminar.
its really stressing me.

my new house is terrible.

burger kingdom might or might not be playing a house show tonight. someone booked us but then i guess never got around to telling the people who live at the house. one of the house members emailed me and told me we could "probably play." i dont even know if i can stomach seeing a bunch of drunk hipsters tonight.
lately it seems like the last thing anyone wants to do is see burger kingdom live.

in other news my sex drive is lower now than i think its ever been, post puberty.

i know people want to hear about chicago and lawrence. ill blog about that later, if i have nough strength.

i think im going to have to get the hell off this campus right now. on the way home ill buy a huge soda, go home and read This Side of Paradise, listen to the new Deerhunter, and drink that fucking soda.

2008-08-24T03:15:00.000-07:00

everyone (else) is asleep at the gloomplex. drew set an alarm for 9, ive got to drive home in 3 and a half hours.

tonight i wished i was in love. not even really in love, but just to pretend i loved someone enough to want to talk to them, or rather to phrase it best to not be scared to talk to them.

i had the best day to day with my best friend.

the worst summer was pretty damn good.

im ready for a change. more ready for change than i think ive ever been before in my life.

2008-08-13T13:24:00.001-07:00

earlier today i drove to my new house to get some shit done. i parked beside a house with four pitbulls in the back yard who barked and snarled at me until i was half a block away. when i returned to my car the pit bulls were inside and i noticed on the fence a no trespassing sign and on the bottom in sharpie was written "watch out haters." i immediately thought about how i should take a picture of that sign and post it on here, to sum up my new neighborhood for my blogbros.
right as that thought entered my mind the guy who lived in that house came up to me and pointed out that there was egg all over my car. he informed me that someone had just driven by and egged his car and mine, and that he called the cops. he went on to divulge that he has a feud going with one of his neighbors and they were probably the ones trying to egg his car. then i thought that i should post that story on here, to sum up my new neighborhood for my blogbros.

"last night i chased black label evan williams with black sparks. all night. oops.:) " - Barrett Emke
excerpt from a comment left on ilenia's myspace

"For you boys, the world.
I'll see what I can do.
I can't promise anything.
I'll give it the ol' college try."
a myspace message from grant about the possibility of booking a show, for a bro of a bro, at the oh la lodge.

stephen and i get to chicago at 9:40pm tomorrow. chomp womp in chi town.

2008-08-11T11:08:00.000-07:00

current status update (8-11-2008):

burger king today for the first time in weeks.
lease signed on new apartment.
three days until chicago.
both bikes still broken.
computer still broken.
amp still broken.
two jobs.
single.

this summer has had some bummers, but it was fun as hell.

2008-08-10T11:48:00.000-07:00

playing with the armory on 8o8o8 might have been the most fun ive had all summer.
chomp womp.

yesterday my dad turned 60.

im going to buzz my head again tonight since ill be seeing jenna in only 4days!

2008-08-07T08:54:00.000-07:00

whoops. its been a while since i blogged.
i got another job. one doing research for the university. so ive been working alot.
but i still dont have any money.

we had the first burger kingdom show and it went really well. people came from stl and lawrence to see us play, and the bar was packed during our set. we painted third eyes on our foreheads, and i broke all the strings on my guitar. the rest of the night people kept coming up to tell me how much they dug the new band, and a few disclosed that they liked the kingdom more than umbros.

dominic taped one of the last umbros shows where we played as a seven piece (three guitars, one bass, three drummers). the recording was forgotten until it was recently discovered. the tape sounded pretty good for just one mic, so stephen put two songs from it up on the umbros myspace. link. ive been thinking of doing a tape release of this show. cough. gabe. cough.

tomorrow stephen and i are tripping to lawrence, with a trunk full of lettuce, and a lovingly crafted comp womp promotional power point presentation.

next week is chicago. i think im going to have to hock my bass so that i can pay rent and have a little money for the chicago trip. its such a bummer being poor.

campus i.t. is updating the software in this computer lab so there are currently six guys with depressing haircuts, and tan polo shirts milling around the lab like the fucking ghosts from pac man. its a pretty funny dance.

now im going to go look around at columbia's slums, maybe ill find one to rent for this next year. a nice floor for touring bands.

2008-07-24T12:20:00.000-07:00

lastnight i had to punch some girl in the face.

2008-07-20T11:46:00.000-07:00

friday was a terrible and weird day for me and a few of my very good friends. it was so messed up that it spilled over into saturday, and will probably make us all feel really really off for a while to come.

in other new burger kingdom didnt play a show, the whole show got cancelled. but i didnt play one burger kingdom song last night with backup from ben hook, billy haring, and brown brock, to a audience of three girls.

i got a job.

maybe it would be better to tell you stories about how this weekend was weird but i just dont have the energy. i just had a nervous breakdown a few weeks ago i dont need another one now.

2008-07-16T15:58:00.000-07:00

ive been working for daneille's dad this week. i tape paper to stuff so it doesnt get paint on it, then when there is paint all over the paper i tear the paper down and pack it into the smallest ball possible. daneille's dad looks just like doug martsch, and is vegetarian. today dannielle was telling me that he does a juice fast twice a week. i asked her if she knew why exactly he was inclined to do that, and she said that it probably was because the two days a week he juice fasts are the two days that he meditates.
i want to make him a tape that just has Built to Spill- Randy Describes Eternity on it.
his name, by the way, is randy.

weve been working outside, and its been damn hot. the backs of my knees are sunburnt, and i have heat rash on my back.

monday i put clean sheets on my bed.

2008-07-09T14:01:00.000-07:00

when youre at the carousel and there are no kids standing around waiting for a ride there isnt much else to do but read a book, or swing your head back and forth looking at all the different people.
yesterday there werent any kids standing around waiting, so there i sat with a book on my lap looking around when i noticed two girls. in age they seemed close enough to be peers, and their outfits said they knew where the thrift shops were located.
i returned to my book.
later when i brought my attention away from my tome, and back to the gallery of people, i noticed the two girls still standing in the same place talking, only this time one of them was looking at me. not quite a stare, yet more than a glance.
some kids came. i smiled, and spun them around in circles. those two girls came and sat down on the bench, the bench where the grandmas sit to wave at their grandchildren as they fly by. more kids came. i smiled and spun them around in circles too. those girls were still there, and they were looking at me again.
i sent the last of the kids on their way, with horse stamps on their hands, to beg their mothers for dairy queen. those girls were still parked on the grandma bench. i wondered if i should go strike up a conversation, but instead i decided to return to my book. i might have read a dozen pages before they got up, but they didnt make it far before one girl turned around. i could see her out the corner of my eye, she was headed right for me.
i looked up and turned to face her while she was still a few yards away. she told me that she noticed the book that i was reading and that it was her favorite book. in responce i told her that the author was one of my favorites and that i had been really into him my first few years of college. after that i didnt know what to say. there was a silence, then she said "that is good for you." walked back to her friend, then they continued away together.

i didnt think much about the exchange for a while. but when youre at the carousel and there are no kids standing around waiting for a ride there isnt much else to do but read a book, look at the people, or think. so after a while i started to think about the exchange, and boy did i think. i thought hard about it, real hard. mostly everything i thought made me feel terrible. i felt like the worst person in the world, or at least another monster in a world full of monsters.

i finished the book a little while after i had bedded the horses down for the night. and decided im going to reread it again, directly.

2008-07-02T10:48:00.000-07:00

played a show sunday at a icecream shop with some bros under the name Color Field. we played improv ambient washes, with two keyboards and one guitar. it was an art opening for our friend Danny Giles who will have his art up at Sparkys all month.

also this weekend my car got sideswiped. $1762.80.

im freaking out about money, because im behind on my bills. fuck this town and the lack of jobs.
tonight afterwork, if i have enough gas in my car, im going to my parents house to use their camera and computer to try and sell some junk on ebay.

channing is going to be in town this weekend, but sadly i cant go with him to his highschool reunion as planned. hopefully we will still get a lot of broing down in.

2008-06-25T13:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday i bought a magic salad bowl, kale, green lettuce leaf, and one tomato. so fear not i will continue to be your salad spirit guide for the rest of the summer. visit columbia for a weekend of green forthmeals.

i might be able to get 40hours a week at the carousel next month, im meeting with my new boss tomorrow to talk about it.

im going to postoffice to buy stamps, i have a box of envelopes. send addresses.

i still havnt bought my megabus tickets, because i dont have a debt card.

2008-06-24T12:27:00.000-07:00

oh blogging!

ive was too busy swimming, bike riding, carousel spinning, lawrence treking, and bro hanging to get to campus and read everyones blogs the last two weeks. so taday i had a pretty large backlog to sift through. it made me happy to read yalls blogs.

lawrence was great, i think the highlight was taking salad fixings to the afterparty finding a big bowl and making salad. also we found out that gabe used to want to fight me and iggy used to hate stephen, but now they like us. i thought that was funny because its kinda classic umbros. on the drive home while stephen was asleep i dreamed up a plot to be in college even longer.

i agree with stephens most recent blog, i dont care where i live after i graduate, so long as i can take all my bros with me.

2008-06-16T13:31:00.000-07:00

for fathers day i gave my dad a haircut.

2008-06-14T13:48:00.001-07:00

yesterday it rained all morning, and though it had stopped by the afternoon it was still fairly overcast. nardy, stephen, and i still went to the public pool. we were the only three people in the olympic size pool and you could tell that if we hadnt shown up they could have closed down and gone home early. the lifeguards just stared at us the whole time, a few of them looked super pissy, which made the swim even more enjoyable. right when we decided to leave half a dozen kids showed up, and we all had a good laugh because now those lifeguards would have to leave the pool open all day.

burger kingdom practice went really well. third band.

sorry i missed you call jenna, we went swimming again after bar close in some really warm lake. then everyone shared their worst jokes, and stephen ripped my pants into shreds.

2008-06-13T10:42:00.000-07:00

jah mon

2008-06-07T12:01:00.000-07:00

actually i think i like not having a computer, or a tv at my house.
i still dont have a working cd or record player though, which is rough.

thursday i rode my bike 20miles down to the river again, this time by myself.
when i got back from the river i bought two of those flask sized bottles of jim beam at the gas station by my house for $4.30. the bottles were right by the register in one of those clear plastic containers that would normally be full of laffy taffy.
full of whiskey i went downtown to hand out handbills for the baby birds show. i ran into aj and joey hook, which made my night cause i didnt know either were in town. also i talked to some cute girl with short hair who playfully accused me flirting with her. and for some reason i got a little hot a bothered and denied it up and down, even though i probably was flirting with her.
i ended the night by walking mark back to his girlfriends house. we were talking about frequencies and mixes, and it started pouring rain on us. by the time we got to the house we were both soaked. i peeled my shirt off and rode the 3miles back to my house through sheets of rain. my brakes hardly worked.

friday i went to see peace by punching play at a house. their set was great, and when they were done i gave them all hugs. some guy enlisted my help in drinking his whiskey. at some point i took all my clothes off and lost my wallet, but a cute girl found it and gave it back. whenever there are more than two giles at a party i know im going to have a fun night.
i ended up at the diner with danny and his girlfriend, but was too drunk to be alive, so i told them all to have a great night and tried to walk home. it felt like the walk home lasted for a whole day, i kept wanting to just lay down on the grass and pass out. i felt like i would never make it home, i really did.

i woke up today feeling like i was still drunk, and went to annas garage sale to say bye to calla. i got two great sweatshirts, and gifts for ilenia and jenna. dan was there too, which was a very pleasant surprise. it was the best garage sale ive been to maybe ever, they had so much great stuff.

i still havnt heard from stephen since he has been back.

2008-06-04T13:18:00.000-07:00

i havnt blogged in a while because my powerbook is totally busted. or atleast looking that way.
life is weird with out a computer.

im going to have to goto my parents house and dig out my old boom box just to listen to cds.

i made a flyer for the baby birds show, since i couldnt use a computer i just drew one. right now im on campus scanning it and making handbills to pass out the the twenty hipsters who didnt get internships and move.

if you click the pic it looks better.

yesterday levi, katie, and i rode out to the river. we stopped half way to go swimming in some private lake surrounded by super fancy houses. the lake was real nasty. we all ditched our wet underwear and rode another 15 miles.

when you dont have a computer i guess you just draw, play guitar, go swimming, and ride bikes.
that isnt to bad, it actually sounds like a great summer.

i guess ill be seeing stephen soon.

2008-05-30T02:01:00.001-07:00

also i forgot to mentio that my aunt took me to chilis today. it was the only thing i ate all day.

i really want to poop. i really want to poop that black bean burger and all those fries out of me right now. ive wanted to poop them out of me all day but they wont get out of me. i want that junk out of me.

i want to poop.

2008-05-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

i hope that tomorrow when im sober i dont delete this.

i was feeling alright being on the computer but typing makes me want to barf, but that isnt so bad because i figure if i barf i can pass out afterwards. it would be cool to pass out.

today on the radio i heard the steve miller band - joker. which is really only important if you know that thursday nights is karaoke at eastside. i recently decided/realized that i love karaoke, i mean i was always down but now im like way down. dig? anyways as soon as i heard that shit on the radio i knew what song i was fucking singing tonight. i killed it.

i really love your peaches want to shake your tree.

i dont know how much i drank tonight but a lot, to much. more than ten, probably more the twelve. if stephen were here i would be barfing, or we would have been shirtless riding the dolphin hours ago. goddamn.

i called people. all of you who were asleep like little bitches, well you know what you are, bitches. gabe was the only person that answered. i hope the rest of you enjoy your long ass messages. gabe i would say i hope you enjoy your night but i know you will, unlike all those pussies. gabe is a sick bro. the rest of you could learn a thing or two, maybe even three, but you probably wont learn anything cause yall suck.

sorry im being belligerent. i kinda got in trouble for that already a few times tonight, whoops.

also i fell off my bike a few times, and almost got hit by a car, and have spent that last two hours laying on my back on a porch staring up at the trees, cause i had the spins to bad to do anything else. when i called gabe and ilenia i had crawled on top of my car and was staring up at the stars.

barrett i got that slowdive album you recommended today. sick.

kansas i hope to see you soon. can i stay at your house?

2008-05-23T02:24:00.000-07:00

i read gabe's blog at 4:20am and it blew my mind.

link

2008-05-22T16:58:00.000-07:00

i woke up early this morning to go to the dentist for the first time in three years. turns out i have 12 cavities.

i just got off work early because the carousel broke.

2008-05-21T10:08:00.000-07:00

i tried to buy tickets for My Bloody Valentine in chicago last night, but they are all gone.

major bummer.

2008-05-13T20:31:00.000-07:00

i figure it will cost about thirty five to forty dollars for gas to lawrence and back.

i have twentyfive dollars in my bank account, and one dollar in my wallet, but ive already made up my mind that ill be in lawrence. i will make it happen. gabe and i are going to wizard staff soda cans.

i went to see about working at summer school on monday. they told me that because their budget got cut by a few million dollars that they might not have enough positions to hire people who arnt currently employed by the school district. luckily since i was a teachers aid last year i would be considered a rehire and would get first crack at any openings. but they made it pretty clear that isnt very likely. bummer.

i took two finals today. it didnt stress me out much.

after my finals i met up with some guy from kcou who had emailed me and wanted to ask me a bunch of questions that no one currently at the station could seem to answer. in the end i ended up at the station for maybe the first time in a year.

i really loved having a radio show. i didnt really miss not having a show this year though. i hadnt really wanted my show back until today when i was in the station, it felt weird. like being in your grandmas house after she has died, although it wasnt quite that powerful or eerie.

but i felt something and i missed something. i missed sifting through the stacks. i missed being all alone in the station after dark listening to music with a bunch of anonymous listeners, its an experience that is so personal yet it is shared with an indefinite amount of strangers.

i ended up signing up for a show over the summer.

after i ate two potatoes for supper, i raised the seat on my bike, and headed to my music theory review session. it seemed like all of us who showed up to the review already knew everything that we went over. no one could really think of anything they needed to be explained so after a few minutes of weird silence the eight other people that showed up started filing out. i decided to stay behind. i had a bunch of questions for my teacher about things that we never covered in class, like the qualities of chords in the different minor scales and how to harmonize when working in a whole tone scale. she was glad to help me with all my questions, but after a while she awkwardly stopped looked straight at me and asked why i wanted to know all these things, and if i was thinking of composing. i told her that i was, that ive been becoming increasingly interested in composition, and that with only two semesters left i dont have time to take the two prerequisite theory classes required to take a composition course. she told me that i could possibly test out of those theory courses and then be able to go straight into the composition courses. it would be a lot of work and i would have to buckle down and be really serious, but i think i should give it a shot. this will be my way of proving to myself whether or not im serious about composing. my teacher was wonderfully supportive and asked me to let her know about how everything works out. i think i will, she really seems like the kind of person who would be worth keeping in touch with. the whole conversation left me in a really good mood.

on the way home i biked by eastside. i congratulated big pants on his recent marriage, and booked a show for babybirds there on june 11th. when i walked outside it had started drizzling. i rode my bike home in the light rain, there was a flash of lightning while i rode through the parking lot of the place where stephen's mom works. i felt like i had just won a series of tiny victories, the rain felt wonderful, and i was in a perfect mood.

2008-05-11T16:45:00.000-07:00

i cant drink for the next two weeks.

sorry the last blog was sorta a bummer. barrett had some good insight, it seems like i always feel a little bummed when i get back to columbia after a stay in lawrence. maybe because stephen and i have made so many friends there that it feels sorta like a second home.

so many things happened that i want to tell all my blogbuddies, and some i think i had better keep to myself. so this blog will probably be real long, like an ilenia blog.

monday when i woke up i had poison ivy all over my body, the most notable area being my hands. i even had it on my palms and fingers so touching anything was painful.

since this was the last week of classes i had two tests, a presentation, and a research paper due. i was really stressed because i had so much to do and just holding a pen or typing was pretty painful. i spent all of monday and tuesday either in class or in the library. and even though there were times i didnt think i could, i got everything done, and i did pretty well on everything too. i was sorta proud of myself for pulling my shit together, since i havnt really been focused on school this semester, and my grades really show it. i just hope that getting my shit together now for my last major assignments and my finals will mean i can salvage some decent grades.

wednesday night the german department had a party at shakespeares. i felt weird about going out in public with poison ivy rash all over me, but i was excited at the prospect of stephen finally seeing my hot german teacher so i decided to go anyways. i felt awkward so i had a few beers which made me real friendly, and i spent most of the night talking to my german teacher and her boyfriend. it was really nice talking to them, and it put me in a really good mood.

i woke up thursday feeling like i always do when i drink until bar-close then have to get up early for class. but my last classes were all really nice, they all felt like perfect to end the semester or something. which just kept me in a really good mood, even though my poison ivy wasnt getting any better.

that night i went to eastside for karaoke, since i figured it might be my last chance to see some of those people again. i went to the bank and took out twenty dollars, that i should have saved, with the intent of buying people drinks, which i did. eastside was nice, there were lots of hugs.

i wasnt really planning on afterpartying but it was stop day and everyone was looking to party so i sorta got caught up in the rush. i went to some dance party and convinced everyone to take their shirts off, even some girls. then the cops came. but i ended up at another dance party where everyone decided to take their pants off too. it reminded me of that time at ilenias house because eventually the sun came up and we were all wasted in our underwear. i wasnt really tired so i ended up getting breakfast with this girl who decided to stay up until some graduation evaluation she had that morning. i ended up going to bed at 10 and getting 5 hours of sleep before work.

friday afterwork stephen and i went over to gregg's to play with his new synth/vocorder. i brought the juice, a 12 pack of miller chill cans, which were tall and skinny like red bulls, and which cost me $11. i thought it was fitting for one of the last times stephen and i would hang out before he left for the summer. the three of us drank chills, played synth, and watched some really awesome youtube videos. tara called to tell me she was drunk for the third time in her life, and that she decided she isnt going to robo-trip anymore. it was pretty much a perfect night at greggs.

we decided to goto a party around midnight. the party sucked. the floors were sticky and there was jello everywhere. at one point i hijacked the ipod to play the next song. stephen prophesied that as soon as the song i picked came on that he and i would go 'fuck yeah' and everyone else would go 'oh no.' he was right, a few seconds into my tom petty song two girls put on their coats and left. also i almost got in a fight for telling some guy to fuck off after he said something about stephen being a fag with big glasses or something. we were talking shit and i told him that i liked his old navy rugby shirt, and he said he liked my chest hair, then i said that im sure his girlfriend was really impressed with him. stephen pointed out that aside form the fact that we were both yelling it sounded like we were both just giving each other compliments. after that bullshit we all just went home and crashed.

the next day i went to the hospital about my poison ivy, and they put me on steroids. and as long as im on steroids im not supposed to drink. gregg made indian food, so after work again i went to greggs. this time stephen brought the juice, six forties two for each of us. he was a little bummed when i told him i couldnt drink, since it was our last night partying together. stephen made a brass monkey out of one of his forties and i was really sad i couldnt have my first brass monkey. again we watched a bunch of youtube videos, a bunch of carabou videos and then sabrina showed us this really creepy one of a home birth. after seeing some woman pull a baby out of herself we decided it was time to head out.

we went to eastside, for big pants birthday. he surprised us all by announcing that the eloped earlier that day, and i thought to myself that the last time i had a girlfriend we broke up the day of big pant's first wedding, i sort of laughed to myself at the fact that hes been married divorced and remarried before ive even got around to dating some girl again, ha. stephen and i werent feeling the last band, so we dipped and headed to a dance party. this party was great, even though i was dead sober i enjoyed myself. it was one of those parties where everyone there is awesome, and pretty much everyone you wanted to see that night shows up. i made something for jenna at the party, ill mail it to her but i dont think she will get it before she leaves for kansas. also at the party i figured out how i got poison ivy, its sort of a funny story, because i guess i got it from making out with a guy, the other eric the one with a C, what a gay way to get poison ivy. danny showed up at one point and we all had a cute little umbros hug, then danny and i traded flannel jackets for the second time, so now we are back to having our original jackets. i think it was a good last columbia party for stephen before he moves for the summer.

my poison ivy is healing up really quickly now that im on the roids. but its a bummer that i cant drink for two more weeks. hey ilenia and jenna do you guys still want me to come to lawrence this weekend? i mean i cant get wastey. also whether or not i can come kinda depends on if i can sell my books back for enough money to cover gas to lawrence and back. being poor blows.

tomorrow im going to the school district office to see if i can get a job at summer school again. if i can do that on top of working the carousel ill be working 60 hours a week. but at least then ill be able to get some duckets saved up. that way next year i hopefully wont be as depressingly poor as i was this year. stephen and i have big dreams on buying loud amps, and putting out an lp next year, and thats going to take lots of duckets.

2008-05-04T18:11:00.000-07:00

we got to columbia, and stephen dropped me off.

i couldnt bring myself to do anything except sit by my window and look at the interweb.

then i took a nap for 3 hours.

when i woke up i felt paralyzingly sad.

probably more sad than i have felt in a really long time. like a deep melancholy type of sad.

i had just woken up and wasnt sure really why i felt so sad.

i just got out of the shower.

i washed off the residue of last night, and felt like i was going to cry.

ive always felt like crying in the shower is uniquely depressing.

so i decided to try to think about why in the world i felt so fucking sad.

i think i might know why. its a bunch of things. but i dont really want to blog anymore about it.

tomorrow im going to a wedding.

tuesday i have a big research paper due that i havnt even started.

i dont know that ill do anything today except drive to my parents, and call elisa.

2008-05-04T15:34:00.000-07:00

three pictures from last night:

a tour of ilenia's laundry room

a slow walk that took all night

my new jayhawk starter jacket

2008-04-29T20:30:00.000-07:00

i went to the student composer recital tonight. some of the pieces were very avant-garde.

it made me think about channing and cat jams. i would have liked to hear what channing had to say about some of the pieces, especially the ones that were more performance art.

i guess the thing about trained musicians trying to sound bad is that they always succeed, sometimes when the adept musician tries to sound bad a gem of beauty or tonality occurs in spite of their efforts.

to much math, and to much thinking.

2008-04-28T00:03:00.001-07:00

friday i drank a chocolate malt. i had been thinking about it for a few days and decided i really wanted one, even though im lactose intolerant. so after i picked up my paycheck i bought a chocolate malt. it actually didnt bother me.

i think awkward is the best way to describe this saturday.

i woke up terribly hung over to stephens coworkers calling me to tell me about his little accident. i didnt know what they expected me to do.

then i had lunch with anna, dan, and alice. for the whole meal alice sat next to me with her head in her hands not talking.

at work jenna sent me some text messages.

after work i went to levis. there were some guys over there that i didnt know. when i showed up one guy said i looked mad and another said i looked like a dad. then they called me a fag for not wanting to do beer bongs. earlier in the night one of these guys had talked to levis neighbor, a married woman. it turns out her husband is the one that flashed a gun at me and baby birds that one time. well this guy starts talking about trying to force his way into this married couples apartment and making a move on this chick. i got way creeped out and dipped.

i ended the night at the last barn owl show. no one was there. it was kind of just all those guys girlfriends and roommates, and then dominic, benjamin, and me. barn owl were all acting really weird, zach kept saying everyone in columbia hated them. and benjamin made me feel really shitty about ever being in a band with him.

also last night i had a bunch of weird dreams. in one i ate meat and it tasted weird, like nothing ive ever tasted before, and i didnt like it but i felt like i had to eat it. in another i ripped my brothers shirt off to reveal that he had a bunch of back hair, and i felt like i had proved a point. i dont remember my other dreams anymore.

i kind of feel like yesterday couldnt have been real.

tonight i drank soda for the first time in a really really long time.

also i wrote this chorale for a class. its aptly titled ''in class assignment #10".

i hope yall enjoy inverted chords.

in class assignment #10 (link)

2008-04-23T21:26:00.000-07:00

today i ate moldy bread and month old eggs. guess what? i felt sick later.

i dont believe krautrock really exists.

before bed i watched a short biography on john cage then watched alot of these on youtube:

2008-04-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

im drinking pbr in my room listening to Siamese Dream.

i was just thinking that if My Bloody Valentine covered (or rather reinterpreted) Siamese Dream it would probably be the most momentous event in popular american music, in my mind.

imagine it. imagine Bilinda Butchers soft voice, Colm O'Ciosoigs powerful drums, and Kevin Shields wall of guitars belting out Cherub Rock. whoa!

as soon as i finish this beer im going to bike down to eastside to sing karaoke, and inquire if anyones jeans were produced in outerspace.

2008-04-15T20:12:00.000-07:00

my shoes are falling apart, or rather have already fallen apart. so last night on my way home from the carousel i bought a $10 pair of those canvas slip on shoes. but today when i wore them they gave me some of the worst blisters ive ever had. so once im done blogging im going to try to return them and hope that no one notices the blood all over the inside. i mean fuck ten dollars is like two hot and readys.

after class was band practice. stephen didnt show up, so danny and i worked on new songs. a few hours later stephen called me and told me he sold his amp, that he will be gone for the entire summer and that he doesnt want to play a show next weekend.

then i put on a white shirt and leather shoes and went to a faculty recital, and thought about my musical future. i thought about my abilities(read lack of abilities) as a composer, and about what would be after umbros.

i really want to be drunk.

on a cheerier note. the show friday was probably one of the most fun shows ive ever played.

after the show a friend told me that she really enjoyed the show and that she comes to umbros shows for the music not just because she is my friend. i thought that was one of the sweetest comments anyone has made about my music. sometimes it feels like no one is really connecting to the music, its nice to know that feeling is unfounded.

edit: im drunk. this forty i bought from the gas station by my house is warm, and my guts hate me for it.

2008-04-13T22:49:00.000-07:00

some of my favorite people are girls i used to date.

tara showed me this:

2008-04-10T14:09:00.000-07:00

Gabe posted on his blog about Bedhead, he said his favorite Bedhead album was Transaction De Novo. i love the first track on that album because for part of the song the only instrumentation is solo bass, and it sounds a lot like my old band the Marriage.

my favorite Bedhead album is Beheaded.

the other day i was studying in library on campus, at one of those creepy metal desks that are tucked away behind stacks of book that only get checked out once every three years. anyways theres always tons of greek letters and homophobic slur graffiti all over these desks, but among all that was something that stood out:

i might have a bee on my head

but dont call me beehead

i thought about how weird that was, then i changed beehead to beeheaded.

my favorite song off Beheaded is The Rest of the Day. this song was also released on a 7inch a few years before Beheaded was released. i also feel like this one song encompasses Bedhead as a band, like everything they are about and everything they did, it all is summed up in this one song. and i think that its sort of sobering considering this was one of the first songs they ever released.

like i told Gabe, about a year ago when Jason Cafer asked me to come on his radio show and play my ten favorite songs of all time The Rest of the Day was one of the songs i played.

that got me thinking about how my ten songs would be different if i had to pick them now. i didnt go through the trouble of making another list but i did decide on my top 2.

the first being Stille Nacht (Silent Night) by Father Josef Mohr and the second being The Waiting by Tom Petty.

2008-04-09T20:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday stephen and i had band practice with 4 drummers.
they just put all the drums in the middle and shared one mega kit.
umbros is playing as an 8 piece friday, eat your heart out cave.

the drum puddle:

2008-04-02T14:00:00.000-07:00

bullshit in the last 48 hours:

found out i got a F on my midterm over king philip of macedonia, in my upper level history course where the midterm makes up 40% of my grade.
for some reason my ipod will now only hold 4gb of music, even after erasing and restoring multiple times.
my powerbook keeps crashing. and sometimes text goes out, which leads me to believe that my logic board might be dying.
the front brake cable on my bike is frayed and broken, so that brake isnt working at all. interesting since i was not the last person to use my bike.
i just failed a music theory exam. mainly because of my continued failure to memorize my key signatures(read: circle of fifths).

i dont need an ipod, i do however need a working computer and a working bike. sadly i dont have any money so i cant really get anything fixed.

as far as school i guess i just need to start spending more time studying, and hopefully i can pull this semester out.

depressing!

2008-03-28T10:13:00.001-07:00

hot and ready madison tour spring 08.

thats stephens car victoria, she has been pretty bitchy recently.
we ate something like six hot and ready pizzas in the last week. one in springfield, at least four in madison, and then one in lawrence last night.

in madison i got to play guitar though a leslie cabinet that alex tore out of an old organ. it sounded amazing. also i learned that a cello bow works so much better on guitar than the violin bow ive been using. alex and julia have some of the neatest stuff in their apartment. im thinking about just taking a week this summer to go up to madison and record with alex.

wednesday Baby Birds Dont Drink Milk played in columbia. stephen and i played auxiliary percussion during their set and used that as an excuse to get free beer from the bar.
stephen took pictures at the show but they got ruined.
there was an after party at levis. then the baby boos came back to my house to eat all my tortilla chips and easter candy. and i gave luke a humbucker and a pickguard for his megahacked telecaster.

thursday stephen levi and i went to lawrence. stephen was too hung over to drive so levi and i went to pick him up after BBDDM left and we got some bk in our guts. stephen barfed in the car before we even got outside the columbia city limits, and then napped for most of the drive.
between the four of us we probably drank 2 gallons of the hang over vitamin water, and stopped at leat four times to either poop or buy french fries. our hangovers were massive.
we brought hot and ready to the potluck. for some reason we went to neon. before we left i did some push ups in front of the bottleneck to work off all that vitamin water.
as usual we got to bed around 4am and had to leave for columbia at 7am. since levi and stephen had to work as soon as we got back to town, i took some trucker speed and drove all the way home while they slept in the car. stephen still made me give him some gas money though.

im so tired, as soon as these caffeine pills wear off im going to crash hard.

there you go, thats my abridged tour blog!

2008-03-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

last night umbros played in madison with our sick bros sonmi, at this really great art venue called project lodge. we wixard staffed real early so by the time we played stephen and i were doing somersaults during guitar solos and broke all our strings in classic wasted umbros fashion. it was the reunion of umbros with ghostbro the original team zour.

our bros sonmi totally owned the night.
our third eyes were opened, our ears smiled.
they really need to go on tour and put out a recording.

SONMI

2008-03-11T20:17:00.001-07:00

it just hit the interweb tonight that boss is going start making a new delay pedal, the dd7.
and even though in the past i have never been to excited about boss delay pedals i think this one is going to really be something.
the option of an external tap tempo switch or an expression pedal to control either effect level, time, or feedback was enough to sell me. but whats more it also has a modulation delay similar to a memory man sound, and a pretty decent analogue model. as well as up to 40sec of sound on sound sampling.

this pedal has just about everything ive ever wanted in a delay pedal.
im really excited, to bad it will probably cost almost $200 when it finally hits the market months from now. i guess ill just have to try to save up some money.

2008-03-11T00:39:00.000-07:00

i pretty much never have trouble falling asleep.
tonight i cant sleep.

all i ate today was bread. maybe 6 slices of rye and 2 of banana bread.
and i feel like barfing.

thanks goodness i have a blog!

2008-03-09T12:59:00.001-07:00

blogbros i made a gift for you all!

its a mixtape of Galaxie 500 songs. i made this lastnight at 4am while stephen was passed out on my couch and i was feeling weird from a night full of delicious indian food, and half a dozen lack luster parties.
i still remember the first time i heard Galaxie 500, i was djing at the radio station real late one night, and randomly came across one of their records in the stacks. i decided to give it a listen so i cued it up and hit play. the song Snowstorm whispered from the studio speakers, and for me those 4minutes were truly magical.
anyways i hope you all enjoy this mixtape, and this band as much as i do.

tracks:
1 Snowstorm
2 Tugboat
3 Strange
4 Pictures
5 Fourth of July
6 Flowers
7 Listen, The Snow is Falling

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